New Year 1945.

New Year 1945

 by Dietrich Bonhoeffer

With every power for good to stay and guide me,
comforted and inspired beyond all fear,
I’ll live these days with you in thought beside me,
and pass, with you, into the coming year.

While all the powers of Good aid and attend us,
boldly we’ll face the future, be it what may.
At even, and at morn, God will befriend us,
and oh, most surely on each new year’s day

The old year still torments our hearts, unhastening:
the long days of our sorrow still endure.
Father, grant to the soul thou hast been chastening
that Thou hast promised—the healing and the cure.

Should it be ours to drain the cup of grieving
even to the dregs of pain, at thy command,
we will not falter, thankfully receiving
all that is given by thy loving hand.

But, should it be thy will once more to release us
to life’s enjoyment and its good sunshine,
that we've learned from sorrow shall increase us
and all our life be dedicate as thine.

To-day, let candles shed their radiant greeting:
lo, on our darkness are they not thy light,
leading us haply to our longed-for meeting?
Thou canst illumine e’en our darkest night.

When now the silence deepens for our hearkening
grant we may hear thy children’s voices raise
from all the unseen world around us darkening
their universal paean, in thy praise.

While all the powers of Good aid and attend us,
boldly we’ll face the future, be it what way.
At even, and at morn, God will befriend us,
And oh, most surely on each new year’s day!

my heart still beats

 

I'm laying awake late at night, listening to the beating of your heart.
Your arms wrapped around me as you sleep.
'how far have we come," i whisper.
I look out the window looking at the star.

"thinking back to the time before this, there was a dying love, that held us together, until the time that we could finally meet
Now you being here next to me, makes my heart skip a beat.

A secrete's kept between you and me.
This love that came to be, should been impossible to have even dreamed.

Tears spring from my eyes, distant memories began to arise.
Things where not always like this.
There was a time we where caught in stormier skies.

I felt lost and alone caught in a darker place.
Wandering, looking for something, never feeling safe.
I knew something in my life was missing

Waking up crying in the middle of the night, something did not feel right.
The countless times that i could not sleep, wanting something to hold, something I could keep.

Feeling my heart shatter into peaces, from the weight of this pain.
Scars on my arms tells of the tears spent, hoping it would subside.
Not sure i could get back up this time.

Laying there wondering "am i still alive?"
"Is my heart still beating?"
"Is it time?"

Just then, I look up to see, a hand reaching down.
A quiet voice calls my name.
I think "'I have been found?'" "someones come?"

Taking the hand I was lifted out.
I see a light shine in the darkness of mine.
Peace fills me up I'm me, What I'm  missing I'm beginning to see.

I opened up the doors to my heart, love was the key.
A path was laid out before thee, Seeing a destiny he has for me
This is the first time we had met.

Since then you have held onto me, never letting go.
I feel alive, my heart is free.
You tell me you will always be with me .

(My heart  is for you, in my heart you will always be.
For i love you with all my heart. This i want you to see)
love you with my whole heart ~

Courage in the face of danger.

I been thinking a lot lately about Courage in the face of danger. To protect everything you love and care about even if it means risking your own life to do it. Jesus and his death on the cross is prefect example of that. Dying for us the human race so we who follow his lead does not go to hell and others have a way to escape the punishment that we all deserve. In spirit of  these three passages I wanted to point to people in history who shown these movement to actions in the face of great dangers.
John 15: 13 Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

Galatians 6:9  And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.

1 john 3: 16 By this we know love, that he laid down his life for us, and we ought to lay down our lives for the brothers.

chief shenandoah and his tribe not only joined the Revolutionary War with the Colonist while most of his people were joining with the British which made him and his tribe a target by his own people but also save Washington and his men by giving them corn during their time in Valley Forge. He did what he felt was right not what was popular and made a stand for freedom for his people and the people around him. Sacrificing a lot to do the right thing. If you want to read more about his tribes stands click here.

Lydia Bixby and her sons are another great example of this. During the Civil War. A war to free slaves and to unite a nation Mrs. Bixby sons all went to fight for others freedom and all ended up dying to help to free slaves from their bonds so they can have the right to be treated as men and women and not cattle to be sold. Which so moved President Lincoln he had to personally write to her.

Executive Mansion,
Washington, Nov. 21, 1864.

Dear Madam,--

I have been shown in the files of the War Department a statement of the Adjutant General of Massachusetts that you are the mother of five sons who have died gloriously on the field of battle.

I feel how weak and fruitless must be any word of mine which should attempt to beguile you from the grief of a loss so overwhelming. But I cannot refrain from tendering you the consolation that may be found in the thanks of the Republic they died to save.

I pray that our Heavenly Father may assuage the anguish of your bereavement, and leave you only the cherished memory of the loved and lost, and the solemn pride that must be yours to have laid so costly a sacrifice upon the altar of freedom.

Yours, very sincerely and respectfully,

A. Lincoln

And there are plenty of others in history who have done the same. People like Michael Murphy Dietrich Bonhoeffer and George Washington just to name a few all have these qualities in common. They stood up for what they believed and all paid dearly two with there lives. The point in all of this God calls us to sacrificial love even if it means our own lives. When he calls us to pick up our cross and follow him. He calls us to his pain. Not only pain he suffered in following God but the pain he felt for others who suffer. He wants us to be there to help and to die to protect others from harm. For as Jesus himself said " Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends." 

Stop with the race war.

Why is there this talk of this race VS that race? Don't people realize we are one race in God's eyes? I am sorry to point this out to all racist on all sides. Whether it be in politics race religion or creed racism is just simply wrong and fighting racism and bigotry with more racism and bigotry. If you think there was racism involved in Ferguson or New York City in the cops why then attack them with your own brand of racism? Why listen to the great race dividers in the nation when we should be listening to the people who want to unit us? Why turn to people of the black panthers Nation of Islam National Socialist Workers Party (Nazis) or the KKK for answers in times like this when all they know is hate and bigotry?      

You want to kill racism want to make it a part of the past then stop turning the the haters and the town burners and turn to Jesus who does not see race economic status but what is in your heart. What good is burning down town beating up people of a different race because you are angry at some cop or some robber. Enough of this race war. We should be beyond this in this day of age. We should be hand in hand not club with club. But instead of listening to God we listen to people who profit off of the dead and racism. Instead of turning to the creator of the universe we turn to our own anger and our own justice. God said Justice is his and his alone. Why do we dethrone God in order to claim our own Justice? You burn  people's businesses steal or randomly beat up someone from another race because of actions not even theirs. How is that going to stop racism? Police are not the enemy or a party but our leaders who get rich off of all of this fighting. Who grab more power to themselves as we fight each other.

In the end answering hate with more hate is not the answer but answering love with hate is. Instead of siding with the problem be the solution. I know this will fall on deaf ears to many who already decided that the white black brown red yellow or name color devil needs to die. Which this message is not for them for they are already lost. My message is to those who just got in this mess or about to. Not me for I march with the army of light where you did not need to be of the same race but carry our crosses with Jesus as we follow him and him alone. Please join me in the movement of love.

dont say goodbye

wrapped in each others arms, the night comes to a standstill 
its as if time itself has stopped.
 it seems as if the universe is holding its breath, and even the stars above seem to lean into see what happens next 
a flash happens,  in a fraction of a second.  
i look up and see your face, tears come down. 
your holding me now.

your whispering "i love you" as you hold me closer.
reaching over i brush the tears off your cheeks. 
things seem to be moving in slow motion, and it seems there's only you and me. 
looking in your eyes, all the love i can see 

holding your hand, smile on my face. 
i can feel its close, its almost time to go
the beating of my heart becomes slower i lower my head back down.

there's something to be said before that time
"please know you will always have this heart of mine.
you don't have to be afraid, even when things seem hopeless,
hope will always find a way to rise, even in this darkness let your light shine.

here in your embrace, i find peace as i began to take my last breath 
crying, you ask me to hold , but i know that the time for me to leave isn't long. 

you don't have to cry, this isn't goodbye. 
stay strong, and continue to carry on.
don't say goodbye, this isn't the end of the rode.
when the time comes, i shall again be with you. 

looking at you one last time, a smile across my face, a breath escapes me .
"i love you , your never alone" a breath escapes me for the last time 
i take my last breath, still wrapped in your arms 
you start to say goodbye, the words echo in your mind 

time seems to flow again. 
words taken to heart. 
you now hold onto the hope
"maybe this isn't the end one day we shall see each other again 

Ticket out of hades

I been listening to this band for a year and I have to say there brand of Christian music really does get you to think. Like this song for instance and this is what it gets me to think. We put our hopes in so many things that end up failing or to be lies like false prophets and there predictions. Even sometimes we just do not have hope at all. We drown in our own hopelessness. We point fingers at others for our pain or even God himself.

But the good news is that Jesus Christ died for us. Not only to save us from our sinful nature but to help us. Not only to bring us into his circle but to heal us of our pain we carry with us everyday. the loneliness we feel, The loss, guilt of past mistakes, and even our sin. He died and rise to carry it all for us. It chains us down. Keeps us as Satan slave. While our past has concurrences. While our actions might of hurt others. I believe Jesus will help us mend the wrong we did to others or to ourselves. But none of this cannot happen if you do not reach out to him who took our punishment for our crimes.

No other God is like Jesus Christ for he knows what it is like to be like us. He has lost love ones. He has been rejected by everyone included his family and friends and died for what he believed in with no one beside him. He understands pain. He understands loss. Why not trust him who can to earth to live like one of us and took our punishment in our place. We stand on charges of high treason against God and he has our pardon. All we have to do is ask for forgiveness and to follow him. Yes it maybe a high price to pay for some. You maybe rejected by a few of your friends or mocked but that is nothing if you do not take the ticket out of Hades. So join me if you will. Stand with Christ and me who he forgave for being an enemy of his. For speaking out against him and even mocking others for believe in him as an atheist. If he could forgive me and Saint Paul who hunted down his followers and killed them than he can forgive you.